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on that day… “my bear”, became MY bear.
in the year 2008, I adopted a 7 year old maine coon cat from the north smithfield animal shelter in north smithfield, rhode island. my soon-to-be bear introduced himself with a sniff from his hiding place at the shelter. he wore a purple elastic collar.
my bear had recently been designated a “permanent resident” at the shelter, which meant that there was the possibility that he would not be available for adoption… but I called frequently and provided references to help convince the shelter to let me keep him. within a week, my bear was available to come home.
fast forward to the spring of 2012 and up until now, I’ve kept my cat’s old, purple collar safely stored away. I’m cleaning house when I come across the old collar, there are numbers written on it in permanent ink. I had previously assumed that these numbers were an ID, but now I see that these numbers are, in fact, my old phone number.
I now realise this collar represents the exact moment that this cat… became MY nick, my “little bear”.
conversations with closed-minded people
I think that most people know or could identify closed-minded people. in my experience, closed-minded people often appear to believe that they are right by default and are, as a result and by habit, not adept to looking for other people’s viewpoints. I don’t normally take these people into the slightest bit of consideration but this past week had me wondering … how common are these average to minimally gifted, though nonetheless, self-appointed experts vs. humble, open & intellectually sponge-like people?
a conversation was struck with me, because of a movie. I have to admit, I did not care to be involved in this conversation, with this particular individual (who I don’t like) but in an effort to be semi-polite, I did what I could so not to rudely ignore the person in a public setting.
it’s apparent that this person saw one movie about time travel & now believes she knows how it works. having done some research on string theory, I point out the flaws in her logic with generally accepted scientific facts but she keeps reverting back to this one fictional movie, as it is her only point of reference.
she claims that if if were possible for you to travel back in time, you would be alone because all your friends would have died. I don’t see how she can come to this conclusion, when even hollywood can & will tell you, that you would arrive back in time to see your friends at the same age as they were on that date. I point out this fact as evident even in the film industry, but no, she seems convinced that once they die in real time, they also cease to exist in the past.
I look at this person in a fair amount of disbelief and considering the massive flaws in her misunderstanding of time. time is not just an analog or digital measurement of the past. time is a theoretical thing, looped infinitely, with the present existance depending on events of the past. there is no future without the all aspects of the past, and besides, there’s always the matter of matter. if this person wanted to time-travel back to high school science, she would find that our bodies consist of matter that remains, in one form or anouther, even after we die… and in my opinion, that completely negates this individual’s rediculous personal theory.
I nod and stop talking.
she can believe whatever she wants.
to quit or not to quit?
since I started community college with the high hopes of greater respect & better pay at work, I’ve unexpectably come to find that I am whole-heartedly NOT into the class I’m supposed to take tomarrow. I’m not interested in the subject as a whole but I may still have an interest in a related subject. so now I’m asking myself, do I continue to go with no interest left … or do I quit & salvage the rest of the semester until it’s time to re-enroll for classes again. will anyone chastise me if I chose to quit? will dropping the class now effect future financial aid? will I have to re-pay for the financial aid I’ve already recieved? or should I suck it up & see this class through to the end?
my own body is seriously screwing around with my head.
for the past week I have been determined to lose a little weight, just one or 2 pounds a day would make me happy. instead, I stand on the scale to see the same number appear over and over again until, at the end of the week, I realise that this time is going to be different… this time, the weight is not going to just dissapear. ever hopeful, I end the day standing on the scale for the last time … and god-d@mn it! you’ve gotta be kidding me?! 4 pounds gone in one day.
no complaints.
thank you for wasting my time…
I’ve been going to school, trying to better my own life through education and the more I attend one of my classes, the less I want to be involved with it’s subject. I’m studying early childhood and while I realise the practicality of the subject, I’ve lost interest in the topic. while I sit in class, listening to the comments of my peers, I’m further reminded that I REALLY don’t belong here.
I remember this one peer confessing her fustration with an inner-city kid, she describes the circumstances & how she tries to “connect” with this kid. she claims to get so frustrated that she could hit the kid (WTF?!). I add to the conversation, saying if I were in this kid’s shoes, I would see her attempts as false and/or shallow. you could argue that, if she’s having so much trouble connecting with this kid, I might have a point… but instead you could hear a collective gasp of shock. I’m suggesting how she might connect with this kid (she’s trying to manufacture a common interest, where I was telling her to try involvement with HIS interests) but that’s apparently unimportant. instead, everybody’s upset that I said “shallow”.
nobody was shocked when this so-called teacher admitted thoughts of violence towords a student… but I called her efforts shallow and the atmosphere became thick enough to cut.
now, I’m taking the class again (because who could or would take that class seriously, really?!) and the new recruits are not much better. even the teacher herself, while knowedgable & even nice, admits passing superfluous judgments that I don’t believe she is correct (or has the right) to pass in reguard to her students.
I’m begining to see these people as generally inflexible & boxed in. I’m not inspired. at this point, I’m only doing this for work… and by the end of the day, my time in this class feels like a terrible waste of my already scarce time.
I have a potentially hard choice to make.
my job, may or may not, depend on these classes. I need to gently find out if these classes are required.
if a picture can be worth a thousand words…
these words would somehow plot my demise.
the leaves outside.
it’s a cool fall morning, barely 10 am & my cat sits beside me. maine coon cats aren’t supposed to be cuddle cats, but whoever said that obviously didn’t know my cat.
I get up & the wind blows the leaves, swirling, outside my window. the motion gets my cat excited like I’ve seen few other things accomplish. he ran to the window.
the wind has now died but my cat is still content to sit.
